I’ve been kind of stuck. Mired down by thoughts and words and feelings. And I just need a break. I forget sometimes I need light and fun too. I have pages full of starts and stops and I realize I just need to step back and let some things process before plunging into them.
In light of my need for some levity, I give you my list of 29 things you never knew you wanted to know about me but now know anyway.
1.) The sound of my husband cracking up laughing is one of the rarest most precious sounds to me. Most of the time, he kind of chuckle-laughs but when he really laughs, it makes my heart happy.
2.) I am a bad driver. I just am. Parallel parking makes me break out in cold sweats and I hate driving in the city by myself.
3.) I’ve never given a compliment I didn’t mean, and am honest to a fault. Don’t go shopping with me or ask me if I like your hair unless you want the truth.
4.) I once watched The Sixth Sense and was so scared I made Josh walk me to the bathroom when I had to go in the middle of the night. For like 3 days in a row. Yeah, we don’t really watch creepy movies anymore.
5.) My favorite ice cream flavor is pistachio but gelato is even better.
6.) I am an ugly crier, swollen eyes, red runny nose. Nothing subtle about me crying. I am a gulping, sobbing mess and it doesn’t help that I’m Asian and my eyes kind of swell shut when I do cry, which isn’t very often. Unless I’m pregnant, then all bets are off and I cry about everything.
7.) I am not sentimental about cards, even ones that say very nice things. I end up throwing them away. I do, however, save letters.
8.) My love language is acts of service but as I’m getting older, I think words of affirmation might be one too. I’m not sure, tell me something nice and we’ll see.
9.) I once got into a food fight with subway sandwiches and my sister-in-law, it was actually a serious fight and sadly wasn’t in my childhood but occurred at 24 years old. I have a temper. We made up… after I got the mustard out of my hair.
10.) I am obsessed with makeup counters and Sephora and have about a hundred different eye shadow shades but most of the time leave the house with no makeup on.
11.) I am actually really shy but can force myself to be outgoing when I need to. I’ll put myself out there if it seems someone else is uncomfortable. Otherwise, I’m often happy in my own little world. It takes me a long time to get close to people but once I do, I am fiercely loyal. I get that from my mom.
12.) Speaking of which, my mom is the person I admire most in my life and the person I am closest to besides Josh. I only hope Kaia and I have that kind of relationship when she grows up.
13.) I have started a lot more things than I have ever finished.
14.) I have known Josh for 17 years and sometimes can’t believe he still likes me. I would never admit it to him but I can be a pain in the butt. I have been forgiven a lot more than I have forgiven. Plus, I still think he’s super hot.
15.) The sight of Judah cuddled up reading to Kaia and Nehemiah makes me proud to be a mommy. I love their relationship.
16.) I would equally love camping with my family to staying in a fancy hotel and being pampered.
17.) I always feel sophisticated when I am drinking wine, even though I know nothing about wine except that I liked it red and I can’t drink it anymore because of migraines. And I feel cool when I drink beer, especially a really good micro-brew in the bottle. I know that I am a dork.
18.) I’m not fond of the” pop in” because I am often in my pajamas in the middle of the day. I would always be in my pajamas if it weren’t tacky for a woman my age to go out in them. Some of you bloggers have inspired me to start making more of an effort. But still, call first, really.
19.) I almost killed a turtle when I went surfing with Josh. Hey, he got in my way. The turtle not Josh.
20.) I never wanted to be a mom or a wife, but couldn’t imagine my life without my kids and my husband even though I am still not “naturally Maternal,” and often feel I am failing at both jobs.
21.) I wish I could sing and play the guitar and secretly fantasize about it, especially when I should be worshiping. When I’m home alone, I totally sing at the top of my lungs and dance around. Another reason to call first.
22.) I have very high expectations and often disappoint myself more than any one else ever could.
23.) I have absolutely no spatial reasoning whatsoever. I cannot put left overs away in the right sized Tupperware container and I have no idea how many people attend my church. I’d say 100 and it would be like 650.
24.) I once jumped off the end of the world.
25.) I am deathly afraid of heights and have had to lay down on my stomach in tall buildings to the horrible embarrassment of my friends. I also scream going across tall bridges. San Fransisco is a nightmare for anyone in the car with me.
26.) I hate the smell of lavender but think it’s gorgeous and love baking with it.
27.) When I walk by a window and see my reflection, I sometimes pretend I’m window shopping but really I’m checking my hair and teeth and outfit.
28.) I want my blog to grow so that I can have opportunities to do what I dream about, but I’m scared to say those dream out loud.
29.) Sometimes, I just need to make lists and take a break and listen to my husband laugh and eat pistachio gelato, while snuggling with my kids.
Well, there you have it. Now you know a bit more about me and will totally be watching me when I walk past a shop window to see whether or not I’m checking myself out. What are some things about you that I never knew I wanted to know. Whoa, say that 5 times fast. And leave a comment. I really do want to know.